Hello, is it me you’re looking for?
I sometimes see you pass outside my door, where I am always unaffectedly introducing myself in public—as an award-winning essayist, comics artist and poet. Hello it’s also me—an educator, research assistant, disability arts worker, painter and photographer. Hello, is it me that you’re looking for—I recently signed a two-book deal with Brow Books. I can see it in your eyes that you want to read my illustrated book-length essay, big beautiful female theory, slated for publication in 2020. I can see it in your smile that it will be developed with the generous assistance of a VicArts grant. You’re all I’ve ever wanted, and my arms are open wide while I create work at my studio in North Melbourne, as part of the Meat Market’s studio program.
And I long to tell you so much, I love you… and also that I won the 2018 Woollahra Digital Literary Prize for Nonfiction for her Scum Magazine column, Diary of a Post-Teenage Girl, and The Lifted Brow & RMIT non/fictionLab Prize for Experimental Non-fiction (2018) for my illustrated essay, ‘big beautiful female theory’. And that I was a finalist for the mid-year Walkleys, and a joint winner of the 2018 Subbed In Chapbook Prize. And that I am a 2019 CA-SRB Emerging Critics Fellow. And that my debut poetry collection, If you’re sexy and you know it slap your hams is forthcoming with Subbed In (April 2019). And also I love you, but also I was a Felix Meyer Scholar and a Wheeler Centre Hot Desk Fellow in 2016.
I long to see the sunlight in your hair, and to tell you that my comics, essays, criticism, memoir, photography, illustrations and poetry have been published widely in journals at home and abroad. I long to tell you time and time again how much I care, but also that I have performed, appeared on panels, and provided illustrations for many festivals, including Untitled (2018), White Night (2015), the Stella Schools Program’s Girls Write Up Festival (2016, 2018) the Emerging Writers Festival (2016–2018), QPF (2018) the Ubud Writers and Readers Festival (2018) and NYWF (2016–2017). Sometimes I feel like my heart will overflow, because I co-curate Synthetic Heat, a series of non-fiction readings, with Ellena Savage.
Hello, I’ve just got to let you know, that I have facilitated comics and zine-making workshops through Arts Access, the Stella Schools program, the Emerging Writers Festival, Queensland Poetry Festival, Ubud Writers and Readers Festival and untitled Literary Festival (that’s through Stonnington Library). ‘Cause I wonder where you are, and I wonder what you do, and if you’re wondering what I do for money, I work as a creative writing tutor at RMIT, as a facilitating artist with ArtLife at Footscray Community Arts Centre and as a research assistant at the University of Melbourne.
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, because I hold a Master’s Degree in Creative Writing, Editing and Publishing from the University of Melbourne, an Honours Degree in English and Theatre Studies, and a Bachelor of Arts (Media and Communications)?
Hello, is it me you’re looking for? Because if so you can contact me via email;
I love you.
Photo credit: Leah Jing McIntosh